“After you, Sarah.” I held open the door of Bluefin Sushi and gestured for her to walk in ahead of me. “Sarah Joy.” I smiled as I used her blogger name, and for the first time, really, something struck me about it. People always say, “something clicked,” but when my intuition fires off there’s no sound. It’s a feeling, of something moving into place. Like rolling over in bed and finding just that new perfectly comfortable position, and the revelatory feeling that goes with it.

“It’s your middle name,” I said. “Right?” I don’t know why I said it. It…

Balboa Park

It’s been ten years since I’ve “been home,” which is the best way I know how to put it, because although I still consider myself to be “from San Diego,” I think of myself just as much or more as being “from Portland” and I’ve never really considered my father’s place “home.”

I know it’s been ten years because it comes up in the car ride from the airport. My old man picked me up from the curb with a nod and a handshake as if we had just seen each other for lunch last week, and on the drive…

I used to have this one dream all the time. I don’t know when it first started, but I was fairly young.

When I was young, I used to love playing in the ocean near my childhood home. One of my favorite things to do would be to wade in the shallow water when the tide was going out and, as each wave broke against the shore and then rushed back to sea, I would face the shore and lean forward, let the force of the rushing water hold me, try to pull me into the sea, pile the sand…

This story originally appeared in Thrice Fiction #1. Minor edits have been made since its first publication.

I could start this account of the body we found that morning, Rosen’s body, and the events that followed, by saying something horribly clichéd like, “I knew there was something different about this one,” but to be honest that’s not far from the truth. …


I'm the biggest idiot I know.

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