西漂少女逃跑計畫 | 16。不再求救

RBao
RBao
Nov 8 · 2 min read

我花了很大的力氣和勇氣才終於跟自己承認,我身邊的人都不是對的聆聽者。我親愛的家人、我的朋友們,都不是對的聆聽者。

這是個很心碎的事實。大家把門關上了(或許他們也不懂得怎麼打開這扇門才是對的),我也把自己的心門給關了。獨留自己在門內跟內心的猛獸相處和搏鬥。我不喊了,不會再有人會聽見我的吶喊。

IU 「Love Poem」這首歌的其中一句歌詞我很喜歡。我希望有人可以跟我說這句話,但我沒等到。

너의 긴 밤이 끝나는 그날
(等有一天你的長夜結束)
고개를 들어 바라본 그곳에 있을게
(當你抬起頭,我會在你身邊)

我宣布不再求救了,我給自己判了死刑。

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    RBao

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    Graphic Designer / Event Curator / Travel Journalist / Photographer. The founder of Eleven27 Design & Escapistory.

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