24. #Time
Have you ever noticed how we count the blessings only after we’ve punched the bags? Never before…

It’s only natural, for there’s a #time for everything.
There’s a #time for the “heck-no”s and a #time for punching the bags. There’s also a #time for the wining and a very special one for the actual cry. The real, honorable cry. The Sob. Yes, that Sob. Then and only then, it’s #time for counting the blessings and much later for laughing it out.
So, it’s OK!
Befriend each step. Each #time.
Befriend and look inwards as if it were our first attempt at suffering. Let it take hold of us, stay stoic, as if we’d done this a million times — it’s standard procedure. And then let go as if… it’s our only way.
Because, ironically, the journey is our sole option.
The journey is our only #time. And #time is our only journey.
Do you know why loops — the loops and patterns and reruns I keep writing about — do you know why they keep… looping?
It’s not because they’re not real and waiting for us to observe them. On the contrary. It’s because by observing them, we’re supposed to realize our response is not real. Nor authentic.
#Time is linear. It only knows True North.
We don’t do loops from the essence. But from egos and minds.
#Time doesn’t do loops.
Do you know that saying?
You only have one life. But if you do it right, once is enough.
That’s exactly what I’m talking about.
If you do it “right” becomes if you do it with divine honesty, if you do it authentically… if you allow yourself to be vulnerable.
(“Divine” is not my word. It’s Danielle LaPorte’s. But it fit perfectly, so I borrowed it. I‘m not talking about the imposed honesty of the Thou shall not bear false witness commandment, but the natural sincerity that springs from being… you. Simply being you. No pressure, no standards, no stencils.)
The problem is… we try to bend #time.
We try to trick suffering. And that’s keeping us in the loop.
We decide pain is bad and — aware or unaware — we do anything in our power to avoid it. That’s what keeps us in the loop.
And “in the loop” means out of the world.
I should know.
There was this one #time — a great friend sent me a Panda bear picture with a sign saying something similar to “I’m taking my #time, not surfacing”. That’s when the concept of the Deli Bubble was born.
I would have times when I would literally withdraw from the world for a few days. I needed to suffer on my own terms. Thinking back, I think she was the only friend who truly understood what was happening. Simply because she seems the only one who stick around.Thank you… for not leaving me.
Anyway…
If we’re willing to be vulnerably honest, there’s a #time for everything. A #time for punching bags and a #time for counting blessings.
If only we’d go straight.
Thanks tons, for reading this!
~ D.
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Other #100NakedWords I’ve written so far:
#Again|#Thoughts|#Breeze|#All|#Happy|#Island|#Still|#Like|#Tired|#Anchor|#Stand|#About|#Meaning|#Relationships|#Boys|#Purpose|#Forgiveness|#Inspiration|#Allow|#Listen|#Break I|#Dream|#Break II
Past #100NakedWords attempts:
#Loop|#Rhythm|#If someone took writing away from me

