41. Jobs

The hunting game.

I am in the silicon valley of India right now. Getting a feel on the job market. Many of my interviews were long drawn conversations — people curious to know what I did, why I did what I did, what mistakes did I make, how did I learn from them, given a chance what would I do differently.

I’d kill for that chance. But now I want to take care of myself. Pick myself up and earn some money. I have turned down an opportunity in fashion because I felt I was out of alignment. The learning prospects seemed amazing, the level of autonomy too but if I spent two years working to build a fashion company that gave very high ducks about ethical sourcing and production, I couldn’t go back to one that had profitability as the most pressing priority. I just cannot turn a blind eye. So I think I’ll stay away from fashion for a while.

“I think I am at a cross roads between choosing what I want and what I need” I say.

“That’s profound” he said

Yeah I know. Its just that I don’t know which is what.
I have always wanted ‘EVERYTHING’ but those intersections of those Venn Diagrams are growing smaller and smaller.

Baby steps.