Fragility
(88) Because I am just too human
Every single day I tell myself, I will be a complete different person from today, I will utilize all the moments I have today and I will finish all my the pending tasks.
I also promise myself I will not be driven by impulses such as loneliness, anger, hunger or hunger for love. I will be sheer focused to my goal, crafts. Someday’s I succeed to do so for a long period of time. But in other days I fail, I fail brutally.
Then I try to analyze what just happened, why I am not being able to do so. Why I am wasting my human potentials in wrong tasks, wrong human beings or thinking about wrong things —
The answer is because I am too human, I care about people who does not even care about me or done harm to me also. I think about unnecessary things which does not even affect me directly most of the times.
I say always to my friends, Humans are best as Humanoid bots, sheer focused to their crafts, I want to be one of them too. I try, fail, then I again try and fail more But I have hope that I will be one of them very soon.
