Liar, Liar

First to myself and then to you.

Well, maybe it is more of a half truth. That still makes it a lie.

What is it?

I have been telling myself I do not care about monetary reward for writing. I wrote it in a story once.

It’s not true.

Monetary rewards speak of success. Money is validation for what you have to offer. Money, as they say, makes the world go round.

I want validation.

I want to ‘be’ more.

I feel I don’t measure up.

Who cares if you offer a great existence for husband, son, dog? Who cares if you take the time to look into the eyes of the grocery bagger, notice their name, thank them-using it? Who cares if you are at the ready when friends and family need a hand?

What do you do????

For money?

That’s what everyone wants to know.

As many times as I tell myself I do not care what others think, I do.

I want to write, or edit, or explore ideas, for money.

Now, I just have to figure out how to get there.

Glad to have cleared the air. The truth shall set you free?

P.S. I will continue to write without payment. I’m pretty sure I can’t stop.