Missing a part of myself

I wander around the house. It’s so quiet, so empty whilst you’re away. I know you’re having a great time with dad and the nature of a divorce means someone is left behind. I count the days until you’re back and remember the fun we have and the time we spend together.

Why sometimes is that longing stronger than others? Is it because I’m also on holidays….there is no work to dull my senses, my memory. Am I feeling it more acutely because I’m aware. Is it guilt as I was the one to call a halt to the marriage……