Sometimes, it’s OK to depend on others
it’s alright, that someone else influences you
You don’t always have to be the strong one. The brave one. The funny one. You don’t always have to hide your emotions, or the fact that you feel. I know that we all have walls and pre-conditioned beliefs that tell us we need to behave a certain way, or not be a certain type of people, but sometimes, it’s OK to just be yourself.
I know this. I know this because I, too, am ashamed to admit that I have walls. I, too, am ashamed of admitting that there are days, my emotions are affected by the people I’m surrounded by. I, too, am terrified of letting someone in to see exactly how screwed up I am.
There is a certain type of power that lays behind that fear. Sometimes, good things come from being afraid. Living in constant fear isn’t always a bad thing. There’s an ancient Chinese saying that goes, “if you know you’re going into danger, you’ll be extra careful.”
It’s OK to depend on others, when you know you need their help. It’s OK to be helpless and shed your defenses. Fuck karma and all that good things come to good people stuff. Sometimes, bad things happen to good people, and it’s OK to depend on someone else. Don’t let one shitty experience turn you into a reclusive hermit. Don’t let your own fear of pain stop you from living your life.
Pain is a lever. Used properly, it can propel us to great heights. Love is another. Trust is the most dangerous lever of all. We don’t always know the best. Why are we so trusting of quotes that sound beautiful, or philosophers who have been long dead?
We should trust ourselves. We should trust the fall. We should trust that when we land, yes, our legs may be broken, and our backs may be paralyzed and maybe we’ll never bounce back, and that’s OK.
In accepting our defeat, we begin to see things for what they truly are, and not merely what we perceive. That’s power. That’s truth. That’s living. So shed your defenses, let down your walls, shout from the tops of the hills that you’re happy or sad. Let someone know that they have the power to influence your emotions. Depend on them, or tell them that enough is enough.
The power, really, lies within.
