Too f*%$!#

I couldn’t do it.

I was falling and she was falling but I couldn’t stay.

She wanted an open relationship.

She can’t do commitment.

I’m scared without it.

Other than that, she was perfect for me.

But then, she obviously wasn’t.

I wanted to learn how to be ok in an open relationship but I just can’t even conceive it at the moment.

I feel like heartbreak would be inevitable in that scenario.

Pain that I have only just gotten over from a very similar story line.

Too soon, too similar, too fucked.