When down time = guilt time
I love the public holidays when I just get to chill out with my kids and relax. We sleep in, play games, read books and just hang out. I love it.
But then a day or so in, I start to feel guilty. It creeps up my spine and sends my muscles jiggling. My eyes dart around looking for things to do. My to-do list starts to build in my head and I feel the sweat of burden build on my skin. I focus on the minutia and forget to enjoy myself.
I start to feel uncomfortable and I don’t know why.
Self care is all the rage, so my brain overrules my heart and I force myself to just sit. But then it creeps again and I’m off and working…..laundry, cooking, cleaning up…..
Am I that programmed to feel guilty when not gainfully engaged?!? And why don’t I see self care and relaxing as gainfully engaged?!?
