When you care about your friends but they don’t

“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget about you.”

I’m hurt.

I’m hurt but I don’t know if I’m just being selfish.

I’m hurt because no matter how hard I try to keep in touch with my friends, they just don’t care about me.

Either I call them but they don’t try to call me back or I’m the only one to call them.

What if I told them I had a cancer and were about to die anytime soon? Would I have the chance to hear their voice again? Would they return my phone calls? Would I have more news from them?

And the worst part about this is that even if we were in the same city, they would react the same.

I love them but I’m hurt.

And I don’t know what to do.