Writer Brain: the tension between writing and mothering

She stood in the grocery line and her thoughts raced. Which story would she write first?

The mom in front of her looked harried with her twin toddlers and she wondered what it would have been like to have children. She sometimes felt the pang of longing, but she also knew that she had her words and her writing.

The creative process was like child birth and child rearing and although she often longed for a child, she rarely felt alone amidst the swirling ideas and thoughts in her mind.

She knew that if she had a child, she would be caught between the longing to the write and the longing to be there for her child. There would be guilt and pain regardless of which she choose and her life would become a tightrope of tension walked out between the two.

Sighing she stepped up the register as the mom and twin boys disappeared out the automatic doors.

This was her life and regardless of whether it had been a conscious or subconscious decision, she would embrace it.