這就是生活 | C’est La Vie

一個月前從柬埔寨回到香港,待了數天就匆匆的到了加拿大開始交流,名副其實「凳都未坐暖」就走了。那幾天發生了很多事,太多了就好像我炸飛了自己一樣哇哈哈哈。

來到加拿大已經大半個月了啊。生活衝得有點快,超級瘋狂但有點太快,明明這邊的生活步伐是比較慢啊喂。每天好像都有點東西要做,然後總有一些意外(笑),一整天的行程像脫疆野馬一樣拉不回來。一拉疆繩 — — 一月已經要完了。

然後就像火箭進入太空後耗盡了燃料一樣,我在這個忙碌的一個月進入了怠倦期,突然沒有動力去做什麼事。

這裏的環境是指那些會吹熄火焰的因素。

「孩子不是等待被填滿的瓶子,而是盼望化作燃燒的火焰。」試就個人對這句話的體會,以「成長」為題,寫作一篇文章。 — — 這是三年前我應考文憑試中文寫作卷的題目。數小時前我的腦袋指使我拋下我應該要讀的參考書,跑去找我中學的中文老師去找回我的作文。然後我發現我寫了左邊這些話。

或者怠倦期從柬埔寨的旅程回來後就開始了,我在找「自己的路」。

然後我好像找到自己的燃料了,一個還不是很強的燃料。我很相信每件事情的發生總有她的原因的。既然沒有既定的路,就亂走一下吧,找一下新的路吧。

共勉之。

二零一六年一月二十五日 • 瞑 • 蒙特利爾

Returning from Cambodia a month ago, I stayed in Hong Kong for a few days and rushed to start my academic exchange in McGill. Yet those few days were some of the most intense days in my life. It was too much to take and it is like I was setting myself on fire.

And then it has been nearly a month since my arrival in Canada. Life has been rushing a bit too quick, amazingly fun, but too quick somehow. And I thought Montreal is supposed to have a slower pace. There’re errands to run everyday, and then shits happen, and things just turn south in a blink of an eye and you can’t pull it back to normal. And January is approaching its end and what the heck?

And Just like a rocket losing its fuel after it was launched into space, I lost my energy to do anything at all after this hectic month.

“Youth are not bottles to be filled in, but flames that wish to be combusted” Please elaborate based on the theme of “Growth”. That was the topic I was given when I did my high school diploma exam in Chinese Writing Paper. A few hours ago my brain commanded me (and obey I shall be) to drop all the readings and text my high school teacher for this piece of writing, and this is what I discovered on the piece:

……They (youth) need no filling-up as they will find the “fuel” themselves and continue to shine. What we need to do is to encourage the flame when it is going to go off … Let them experience and find their own path.

I probably lost my energy since my internship ended in Cambodia. I am finding “my own path”.

…Take a step, Find a path,
That is what you need to do.
You are never bored as I am with you
Close your eyes and listen to me
Stars shine for you, plants sway for you, dance with rabbits…

And I might have found my fuel (not a strong one yet) from a Cantonese comedy video of The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. (I never watched the movie.) But perhaps it is time to just do something random and try to find my path.

All the best to the people who are doing the same in their life.

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