I think everyone’s a bit scared of growing older, well not I think, more of I know. But after a while people do just leave their “fear” aside anyways.

My birthday’s tomorrow (17th October) and I hope it’ll be significant. I’ll be 16, and even though I pretty confident that after tomorrow my whole life won’t instantly change, but I’m more sure of that things might just differ slightly. Having the new thought that “I’m 16 now” is always an upside. I mean now I’ll be legally allowed to play +16 games, or just do general 16 year old stuff, ya know — that’s really all I could think about.

Another thought I had of “I survived for 16 years” or “ I’ve lived for 16 years” also makes me smile a little. I mean 16 years is a god damn long time, for me at least. It’s the longest time I’ve ever known, it’s like 504,911,232 seconds. Don’t you find it cool that you’ll never live for longer than you have? How you can never be older or younger than you are? It’s quite a given answer but always makes me thing a little from time to time.

I’ve done a lot in 16 years, everyone has. I guess (and this is the only time in my life I will ever use ‘I guess’) that makes me smile a little. I’ve been through a lot, my physical appearance has been through a lot. I went from being short and fat and Bieber hair, to tall and skinny and spiky ; quite a substantial transformation for myself.

My relationships has also flourished in my time. Made great friends whom I treasure endlessly. Love my mom. Love my dad. Love my sister. ☺

- It’s always a nice feeling to feel like you’ve had a good strong chat with someone. Those are the kinda things I treasure the most sometimes in relationships, or even in life. “Connecting with people” is a common interest that has great meaning to a lot of people. I love my girlfriend because we have great neverending conversations for hours and hours and hours — one of the most appreciated things in my life. (She’s off on a camp this week, I miss her like-)

I can’t help but smile right now. To be honest I’m surprised I’m actually smiling, I’d figure I would tear up or tremble from fear but hey, I’m pretty good actually :O. I wrote this because I was beginning to panic a little but after all I guess (so sorry for the second time) it’s a nice thing. Apologies to cut it short but I’ve written all I want to write for now. Embrace age? should that be the moral of the story? Nahh, we don’t need a moral for today. Could that be the moral of the story? Nahh