Just Rolling with It at the Beach

Day 12–30 Days of Writing to Refresh my Mind

I write this after spending the day at Rockaway Beach. My family went for the first time since our son was born last July. I feel grateful for the experience.

I also feel grateful for giving myself permission to go today. It’s a Tuesday. My inner voices tell me today should be a work day. Those inner voices are from my past. They’re pretty loud.

I managed to keep the inner voices at bay today. I gave myself permission to go to the beach. I bought into the decision. I was able to go and enjoy the day as a result. I was able to be present with my family at the beach as a result.

I did check my email a couple of times. I decided not to be too hard on myself about that. Other than that, I was present and enjoyed the time.

Having the flexibility to go to the beach on a Tuesday is one benefit of Just Rolling with It. I write this to remind myself of this benefit. I write this to remind myself that chasing a bunch of money isn’t the driving force in my life anymore.

Earning a comfortable income is a requirement. I remain realistic and pragmatic about that fact. I live in NYC. That means a comfortable income does take some chasing.

It doesn’t mean I need to chase to control my happiness though. I’m learning to let go of my misconceptions of control. I find there’s happiness in letting go of control too.

The fear is still there. Just Rolling with It still feels like a shaky journey. I’m learning to let go of the need to smooth out the ride. I’m learning to let go and try and enjoy the ride for what it is.

Today that meant going to the beach on a Tuesday. Tomorrow that means going to the beach on a Wednesday to celebrate my wife’s birthday.

Day 10’s in the books. Here’s to Just Rolling with It!