Introvert To Empath To…. Successful Energy? (Distorted social situations and the frantic stimulant impact of coffee)

I am an empath and introvert. What that means is I have a harder time being around social situations without feeling like someone just stabbed me with a spike or just being overwhelmed with social anxiety. I’ve become more tolerant over the years. Some people find it hard to truly grasp and understand why some people would rather be left alone instead of socially engaging with the majority and going out drinking, partying, bowling, etc etc etc. I’m not trying to be rude or seem like I am too good to hang out, I’m just not interested, because it isn’t fun to me, but I’ll do it once in a while because I like seeing others have a good time and or achieve success. I often get invited to parties, band practices, concerts, social events that usually involve some sort of intoxication of alcohol or caffeine. I’m not a fan of either. I don’t always drink, but when I do I prefer wine (stay thirsty my friends). Which I consider wine an art form and a creative process and communion with nature. You can actually enjoy wine with a meal, fresh from the garden like the vineyard rather than just chugging Jack Daniels or Rum and taking shot after shot until you pass out on the floor and wake up in a pool of vomit or feeling like Arnold Schwarzenegger was squeezing your head all night looking for a magical jar of cookies crafted from Creatine hidden in your ear, and by the time you wake up he’s already back in the gym. Coffee really disrupts my nervous system through out the day to the point of not being able to complete sentences in normal conversations and amplifying social anxiety to the max. Caffeine really REALLY fucks me up, and it stays active in the mind for 12 hours so I could be up until 12–1AM from one soda. So I tend to stay away from those types of things. While all of the majority of people I come into contact with that want to go out and have a good time, indulge in these products and alcohol is their life… Its normal!… Its a lifestyle!.. To them…

From my perspective I absorb energy from people or it is being sucked out of me. Which I do have a lot of energy so I can manage or at least my body has adapted to giving a lot away and creating more…. defying universal Earthling logic “energy cannot be created nor destroyed” (sorry laddies and lassies I just did). But when I am around a lot of people when these conversations spark about the more trivial things in life, I zone out. Not out of disrespect, I want to be in the conversation too! The whole thing goes blank. I get to the point to where they are having these pop culture conversations and I’m just drifting through space most likely trying to visualize the atoms in the room or whatever it is I do when I entertain myself and I look like I just did 12 hits of LSD and then I say something random out loud “wow we are consciousness” it’s like falling asleep and waking up in the middle of a court session saying “I OBJECT!”..

I realize in order to be successful in what I want to do, I need to be more willing to go to these social events to network “after all it’s about who you know” in the entertainment business. I want to support others as well on my way to creating my own success as well. That seems like the right thing to do. Even on these blogging sites, I encourage and hope to see others become successful. This is what you want to do, this is a way to express yourself for you to reach your true potential. We are living in the future, the future is now. The new business model is here and we are awaiting to be discovered. The energy has shifted as well. With all of these famous individuals that passed in the recent months and that possessed this energy it is your turn to reach out and seize it. You just have to reach up and grab it… And that time is right now… Absorb it, as much as possible. Successful energy is here. RIGHT NOW. You must grab the idea before someone else does though. You must reach NOW. Don’t let that other person work harder than you and out work you. The passing of the torch just happened. I won’t go into detail about it.. Because it’s almost a secret. I’m hinting that if you are reading this, now is the time to follow through with you your dreams. I wanted to end this on a positive note. So there it is.

Be creative.

Keep working.

Be supportive.

Give a piece of your day (THE NOW) a piece of your future. Everyday, not matter how long it takes. Then. Harvest.

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