99 days of overture

31 Dec 2015

Day 1 started slowly. Though, I already have more power over my emotions and words. With that, I immediately want to use faith and share my blessings with my brother.

I pray he is healthy. Please God, give him vitality and knowledge on how to control his weight and fitness as well despite that he will not listen to me. I am giving up my worries to you, Lord. It is not my place to judge him —

please forgive me for judging others.

I thank you for enriching my ability to express my doubts, my needs, and anger to my mother tonight. I appreciate your grace and glory. Realizing better methods of filtering negative emotions from my daily mental chatter will guide me towards salvation, I believe, so therefore if God wills it…

I would like to continue practicing letting go of hypotheticals and imagined scenarios that induce unnecessary, draining emotional reactions.

Fitness speaking, I will have done 1 hour of stretching and calisthenics. I ate

• instant oatmeal from a cup
• bowl of raisin bran
• serving of kettle popcorn
• bottle of root beer
• 2 servings of cheetos
• collard greens, rotisserie chicken, salsa, and black eyed beans
• a slice of pizza
• one apple

There was a lot of junk food snacking — I had justified it at the time since it was New Year’s eve. Estimated amount of calories is 1500–1600. Weighed 147.9 in the afternoon.