You walk out onto the deserted beach, as you remember the loud laughter of your cousins when you ran out with them onto the beach, which now feels hard and cold. You remember the waves, crashing at the shore. You remember your oldest cousin, Olajide, who made sure he was the center of attention, by making the biggest sandcastle. You remember the crab races, which you loved, just like your baby sister Diola. You remember Diola crawling along the beach, as you encouraged her. You remember Diola walk on the beach for the first time. You remember watching her learn to swim, with your mother. You remember swimming out to the buoy with Diola for the first time. You also remember it was the last time you saw Diola. You remember her screaming, her arms waving wildy. You remember Olajide diving in trying to make it in time. You remember yourself trying to pull her up, as she pulled you down. You remember your parents screaming when you told them. You remember feeling abandoned and lonely, as you still do now, 10 years later.