if you're reading this im having a mental break down
well, I've had this story written for a while. im just gonna say if I dont show up to school tomorrow its because im in a mental hospital. I want to kill myself. I hate life. I cant deal with it anymore. he's gonna be worried but I dont know I think I might ask to go to a mental hospital. it might be my last hope at staying alive. im so sorry anaya. im so sorry xaden. I just dont know what to do anymore. im sick and seeing him with another girl triggered me. it made me go insane. I know she's prettier than me. and I see why he's with her. I love him but he's just so important to me. im crying right now. not just a single tear. im full-on crying. I want to be wiped off this earth. im just so scared. I dont know what to do. music, anaya, and xaden are the only things keeping me here. but I dont know. killing myself seems like the best option. im gonna post this now but i want you guys to read some of these songs and poems i wrote.
I cut my wrist but they dont heal.
I wish they would but they won't
i cry and the tears burn
they sting my cuts
i love them so much
tell them i love them
but
i just cant stay here
its 5 am
im crying im balling
he will never love me again
they'll look at me in my coffin and laugh
im sorry baby
im sorry girly
