Letter #14

I would love love love to hear ALL the stories you have from abroad: all the happy, eventful, adventurous, scandalous stories! I will never get sick of you talking about your travels, it is all so interesting to me, and I love learning more about you.

One of the strongest reason for me wanting to go back home is because I think that I need to contribute to the place that has given me so much. It may seem like a strange concept, but I have a great sense of belonging and wanting to “do something” for Hong Kong, because I love the city so much. It seems almost like betrayal for me to stay in the US (maybe it is more of an escape for some people), but I just don’t feel like I belong here (even though I would have spent 5.5 years here by the time I graduate). I feel like I need to take back all that I have learned and experienced to be of use (somehow) to HK. There is a strange sense of responsiblity that I cannot really articulate. Maybe when I feel like I have “done my part” in HK then I will go somewhere else (but also lah, depends on where I get a job, not so much my choice in the end.. 身不由己 you know).

I feel like my writing is breaking down here (not that it was ever very good), but this is just quite hard to explain. Not sure if you understood any of the previous paragraph or not. Hope at least some of it makes sense…