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Oh Boy. I want to say that I had a pretty good day. That was definitely nice to say.
I saw my counselor, relaxed as best I could, tidied up the place and did Laundry. It was a good day. I wasn’t stressing about much stuff. I think I’m going to rearrange my day a little bit next time though. Get the stuff that I need to do “out of the way.”
I have this crazy tendency, which I’m sure like most people to procrastinate on a lot of things. Especially things that really matter to me. It’s sort of hard to explain or rather explain to someone who I believe is in a better state of mind than me.
Listen, I want to build good habits, I want to write, I want to shoot, I want to work out…etc. All of those things are good for me but I’ll find crazy excuses not to do them. The scary part are those excuses are legit tasks that I can do. I must change the way I think.
I will avoid doing these other things that I really want to do, all of this art I suppose because I’m freaking scared that it’s all going to suck. First of all, I should just accept that there’s a possibility that it’ll suck and know that it probably will. Accept it, it’s okay. I’ll never get better if I don’t do anything. Next, I need to think more critically and intentionally more in the future. For instance…Get your art out of the way first right now, especially on your free days. On your day job days, get work done and do the stuff you want to do in between…that’s been working for you.
On your off days though…do the stuff you need to do first and take breaks by doing the menial tasks that you need to do while also mixing it with True Detective Season 2 or whatever you’re watching…Just try it. It may work.
Actually, let’s start this Sunday. Wake up…and start your weekly review. Work on it for just 5 minutes.
Cheers,
