I am new here, I hardly know you. If this is your story or its a true story of somebody. That person has done amazing by enduring so much. You need to keep fighting. It was not your fault and you need not pay the price.
I dont know how it feels because I have not been through it. But even the thought of it scares my soul.
Now when you have left it behind and moved ahead. Don’t let it come to you again. You are one strong individual, I feel it through your writings. There are so many people here who will agree with me, who look upto you. Prove your fears wrong and move ahead. I or anybody else can only say but you have to it. And I believe you can do it.