
Hold your stomach in…
I have been thinking about doing this for a while but didn’t have the courage. However, today something happened that made me realize that i had to…
A few days I bought a 200 USD dress as I am going to an international convention and was looking for trendy outfits that match the city I am suppose to visit. When i was in the fitting room staring at that expensive, not needed — but gorgeous — dress all I could focus on was my stomach.
I wasn’t staring on how beautiful the dress was, how it fit on the rest of my body and how my boobs were practically coming out of it. NOOO!!! It was as if my mind forgot about anything else around me except my stomach coming out of the dress. This ugly piece of body, flesh, skin… you name it and I will make it an insult…
After a few minutes of staring at the pink elephant in the room I said to myself out loud: You will loose weight and make sure you deserve to wear this dress… I went home with the dress.
Today I had an appointment and I arrived 25 minutes earlier and decided to look around the stores nearby… I entered a lingerie store and suddently before hitting the bra section I discovered the miracle for my dress… Spandex bottoms… So I am curiously checking them out in the typical mysterious way and the sales girl approaches and says: if you need any help please let me know…
I said: this truly works?? I need to find something that holds all of these (of course pointing at my stomach), do you think i fit inside a medium??… I just asked her like 10 questions in less than 5 seconds with my anxiety levels increasing with every word. She looks at me and says: I think you might be a small… and wether ir works or not I really can’t say… Of course I completely ignored here…
She kept staring at me while I was examining the infamous ugly piece of underwear (which i am pretty sure most of you have) and slowly walks away… As she is leaving I automatically looked at her and said: it is amazing what I am willing to do for HIM … I will take one in medium black… and approached the register…
I forgot about my stomach… I forgot about the expensive nice dress… I forgot about me… It was all him…
