one day at a time.
I’ve been postponing this moment right now because I always thought I didn’t have anything interesting to tell, huh? Well, it turns out that every time I caught myself up in small talks and conversations over drinks with friends and colleagues, I realised that, in fact, I’ve experienced a lot of stuff that shaped me into what I am today.
Well, I know, that’s very cliché-y, since all humans went through the same process. What is special about me, though, is the fact that I have been changing drastically over the course of the past years. Every small thing that happens to me, make me evaluate where I am and the how_the_fuck_did_I_get_into_that_situation.exe mood is activated, making me rethink everything and restructure my way of living and existing in this world.
I have recently realised that I am a person of colour and it changed my view on my own image, for example. You may say “wow that’s weird, how is it even possible for someone who probably has a mirror and took pictures” and I will tell you: well, my friends, it’s pretty possible. I will write more on that later, as to be completely honest I still don’t know what my role in this world is. I have recently married (three and a half years ago), bought a house (just this year), started a new career whilst still was fighting hard for my dreams (since always). I have also let people down and I might have hurt some in the process but my flaws are also part of who I am and I try my best to learn from them every single day, so all I can say is “sorry” and do it all not to repeat the same mistakes. Guess what, that’s life.
There’s a new culture on internet of “cancelling” people and I’m not sure where I stand on it. As much as I understand that we will not tolerate anymore any types of hate, anybody who tries to bring people down, who abuses people, who beat people, who reinforces patriarchy, who is ageist and etc, I keep on asking myself the following: what is the real change we want in this world? Do we want people to change the way they think or do we want to exclude those who have been excluding us all life? Is this a revolution to change people or to ban people? I wish it was simple as typing it here but it’s not.
It turns out that change is needed, is necessary. That’s how the world will adapt and evolve. And change is hard. It doesn’t come without pain and mess. But not every change is good. Sometimes good people get lost in the middle of it. I’m just afraid that we’re not getting lost. Well, we’ll see it. One day at a time.
