Long Time No See

Giovanni Paolo
Aug 9, 2017 · 3 min read

Man, has it been a while since I logged into this account, sat down and committed to actually writing something again(like I said I would when I started this account four months ago, I know, I lack discipline). Quite frankly, the truth is that I just didn’t have anything to say. And if there is anything I’ve learned it’s that if the passion isn't there, don’t do it at all.

That’s not to say that I have arrived to present you with some new found wisdom(See the first post to see my pretentiousness four months ago) to all my 5 to 10 readers that will bother to reach the end of this update/blog/think piece. Rather, I just want to have another go at this “First Step” towards writing again.

One thing I wish I had included on my first medium ‘article’ was the difficulty I tend to experience when I start anything in my life. The level of stress and anxiety I experience tends to dissuade me from taking those first steps towards starting something new. I also tend to have the difficulty leaving old habits which just add to my paradoxical personality that has led me to some unpleasant situations in my life.

Unpleasant situations like addiction, compulsive behavior, overall disregard for my life and those around me. All of which I have been making an effort to recover from and to a certain extent I have. In essence, it has been a journey of reclaiming what had been simply been lost with years of abuse(primarily an appreciation for life and the little things). Maybe one day I can muster the courage to write about my addiction in a story or something else, but I digress(I always tend to deviate from the topic).

What really made me come back this website?

Like I said before, I mainly want to give this an honest try this time given that I actually feel the drive to do so this time. I think I genuinely have stories I want to tell, (to my 5 reader audience)unlike on my first post where I was merely riding the high of finishing a “self-help” (a book that did have its just merits and still HIGHLY recommend). This drive has also come because of some new friends I have made that have been very supportive on this topic of writing and to that I owe them many thanks. Which proved to be the last little push I needed to try and get back into the swing of things.

So what’s next?

To be completely honest I can’t really say. The future has never looked this uncertain given all the situation with the university and how it’s going to affect me(budget cuts, student strikes etc.). I’m planning on making an honest effort to post some short stories and poems but I’m not making any deadlines for myself(they don’t seem to have any effect on me, sadly). For now, all I can say is thank you for reading this, it really means a lot to me. Even when is three people that end up doing it, I value the fact that someone took time off their day to check my abysmal writing. Have a great day!

*Note: I think I won’t be limiting myself on what I post on the account. I had been meaning to publish some of my university papers here (for people’s amusement because I don’t think they are that scholarly) and also some more marketable article to see if I can get something going on this account. Feel free to post a response (or email me at giovannipaolo2013@gmail.com) to this update/blog/think piece and tell me if you have any recommendations on how to improve my writing(or just any comment you want to post, it’s the internet after all).*

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