I am so sorry you experienced such a lonely childhood with parents who didn’t parent you. Its good you found a forum you can speak out about. We all need and want to connect. Its in us from the day of birth. What we experience in our childhood carries into adulthood. I am afraid for my boys. A set of twins. I moved out from their father when I was pregnant and realised he didn’t care about me. They look for male role models and the fighting between them is really hostile. I worry about their maleness. What they think they should be comparing to what they want to be.
. Thank you for your outlook on your life. Again, I am sorry you were neglected in connecting with bonding.