It Didn’t Work… Nothing’s working!
I started out trying to be as gentle and soft as I possibly could be. This person didn’t know anything about me. Didn’t know me when I was in school. Had no clue how I felt or what I liked. Didn’t know the kind of Lutheran girl I was. So, I tried approaching this individual with as much room for a bubble as I could. I waited (impatiently) for some sign of response. As always, Sooner then later I felt as if flood waters gushed out of me. Uncontrollably I was talking at lightning speeds and paging through the pamphlet I brought with me, pointing out what I knew was the most important information of their sweet life… My ramblings quickly halted the moment I had lost them in dialog. That “look” they gave me was the same “look” I had seen a dozen times before. It’s the “you completely lost me” look.
Afterwards, I would hope a response would come through my email box. But nothing ever does. Sometimes I fight this, which only closes the line of communication that much faster. “This is how I am, deal with it.” Not the right invitation to be handing out, hindsight recognizes, but my excitement gets the better of me and they do not walk but run the other direction.
Nothing I have done has worked and nothing may ever work. I just need to face facts… besides,
Right now, its probably better I just do what I do. I have a weekend coming up all to myself. I can read and reorganize a closet… Maybe write a couple book reviews. I am not a people person. I don’t try to gather people together, I have never tried to win and influence friends. I share important information that I think one should know. If they rebuke the information, at least I planted a seed.
