495 days left
Got up late at around 8AM in the morning after a big fight yesterday night.
It was tiring. I meditated before going to bed and chanted some mantras which I believe in. It had a positive effect on me.
Today whole day was normal. “A normal day”
Nothing negative about my wife hit me. Actually all day I was ok.
After office we went to Jewel shop she bought an ornament and we had pizza and came home.
All day ran good actually. :)
Thank you God! I want to be like this.
But I do not know how I will crack and finish off my loans. :(
Want to really make it in remaining days.
God I need your help. I will surely clear-off my loans.
After coming home and relaxing for a while we both were intimate and while she was next to me and she was pleasuring me my mind was away for a while thinking again she might have touched men in her past like this. It breaks me I know.
But I did let go of it. It hurt me for a while and I let it go.
I ironed my cloths and hers as we are going for a wedding in next 2 days. She did her yoga practice and hugged me :)
Me after finishing ironing my cloths and hers. I continued reading the book related to wellness and slept.
It’s around 1.10 AM I am going to sleep now.