ive never really been good at explaining myself but for this post i don’t have to explain my self to anyone, this post is for people who decide to assume my situation and post about it on social media, because i feel like if you’re going to post about my situation you might as well post facts,
so exactly 19 weeks ago on march 3rd i found out that Ben and I were going to be having a baby and for those of you who can’t do math or don’t know how it works on march 3rd i was already 5 weeks pregnant i just didn’t know so add 5&19 together and that’s how many weeks I am now back to the story, that day my entire world flipped upside down and my entire life changed, the smoking stopped, the drinking stopped, my old life stopped, and a whole new one began, i never knew what such a big role being an expecting mom, i never knew how many big changes my body would be going through, and might i add when i first got pregnant i was attending lone peak high school full time so you guys who know how pregnancy works you get morning sickness from about 7–9 weeks till the end of your trimester which ends at 13 weeks so as you could imagine i was going to school full time and throwing up every morning either before school or during class, i lost a lot of weight because i could not keep anything down so yes i lost A LOT of weight, and a lot of people just assumed that i was doing hard drugs because i had not posted or told anyone i was pregnant so of course being the high school girls people are they posted things that were not true about me all including that i was doing hard drugs and that it had an eating disorder or that i was starving myself and that’s why i was so skinny but believe it or not i was not doing any of those things i was just in my first trimester of pregnancy, so through your my entire first trimester i lost a lot of my friends and thank god for that honestly, the friends i had were dumb as shit and if you’re readying this wondering if you were one of my dumb friends ask yourself if we still talk, if the answer is no then yes you were one of my dumb friends, and im sorry if this offends you but i am so glad that you are not in my life anymore, so with that being said with me loosing all of my friends little did i know that it came with my old friends being so immature that they would stand outside my classroom and talk shit and post things on twitter that we’re not true and im not going to name names because i am a decent person and im sure you guys wouldn’t want your names mentioned either after all the bad shit everyone knows you did and with that being said ill leave all the shit you guys did out because most everyone already knows, so basically i was alone during the entire pregnancy, besides Ben, with him being the only person who could actually show love and compassion to me and actually treat me like a normal girl, around him i felt like i wasn’t pregnant because it wasn’t all we talked about, and i know as soon as everyone reads this it’s going to be “did you know that haylie and ben are having a kid?” “Isn’t she only 17" “did she drop out” let me answer a few of these questions before we move on yes ben and i are having a baby you are reading this post right, yes i am 6 month pregnant, yes i am only 17, yes ben and i can support a baby we have everything planned out to the point where we can move into our own apartment the day i turn 18 and that’s probably better than what you 18,19,20 year olds are doing so before you judge remember that, yes ben and i both work full time jobs so we are not “low life broke parents” and no i did not drop out of high school, I finished school my junior year with the help of lone peak administration and east shore high school, those are just a few questions i am going to be answering in this post. so with that being said let’s fast forward to my 2nd trimester, on may 8th i am just a day shy of 15 weeks, Ben and I got to see our little baby for the first time, and it’s such a surreal feeling when the nurse puts the ultrasound wand on your belly and for a moment you think “what if there’s not a baby in there” or something crazy i just remember telling ben that sentence and the nurse laughed and put the wand on my belly and there our baby popped up on the screen, and for a second you just stare at it thinking is this really real? this little human being is growing inside of me and is probably the size of an apple or smaller, and for a moment you’re just in bliss, and i never thought i could feel so much love for something i haven’t even touched or seen yet and ill tell you the ultrasound is over way to fast you feel like you could just stare at the screen and watch your baby all day even though all the baby can do is sleep right now because you just have so much selfless love for this tiny being growing inside you, let’s fast forward a little bit, to 19 weeks, i remember the first time i felt our baby kick, it caught me off guard it was about 1 in the morning and i am watching greys anatomy and i feel this tiny tiny kick and i go wait a minute was that a kick? and i never felt another kick that night, baby was just letting me know “hey im still here alive healthy and breathing” it wasn’t until 23 weeks when i felt consistent kicking, and it was that week where i really emotionally connected with my baby, they baby can hear and move to noise, can see light, move around when i eat sweet or sour food, for a while our baby was just like me a heavy sleepy only awake at 2 am to kick me to let me know and then go back to sleep it wasn’t until this last week where our baby decided to be a morning baby and make me one with her and wake me up with kicks at 6 am and then again at 8 am and so on, and then she would sleep for a while and the at 12 am again I can feel her kicks, it’s such a surreal feeling honestly, it just makes you so happy, whenever im sad or frustrated little baby is there to wiggle around and let me know everything’s okay❤️ so here we are 25 weeks now and wow let me tell you it really does go by fast, holy hell i was not expecting it to go by this fast one day ur holding the pregnancy test in your hand you blink and your 6 months pregnant, so up until this past 2 weeks my parents had no idea ben and i were having a baby, so finally grew a pair and told my parents and i was scared at first and didn’t want to tell them but after I told them what a relief like this weight was off my chest, and ben and i finally weren’t in this all alone we had his family support and now my family’s support, and in all honesty i wish i had told my parents sooner I was jus afraid of what they would say but telling them and knowing I have my entire family’s support and they have my back through this whole thing is such a good feeling, and for a while i was scared of telling people other than my family but then i realized that being me pregnant is not going to end my life for some reason people has this god awful stereotype of teens who get pregnant and they shame them for no reason when they are still the same person they were before they got pregnant, and I’m not stupid I know what people are going to say about me after they read this but honestly i don’t care i don’t need anyone’s approval and support other than Bens my family’s and his family so you guys can talk all you want and call me the pregnant girl even thought I haven’t changed one bit maybe my actions have changed and my belly has changed but other than that I am still the same 17 year old girl I was before I got pregnant and just to wrap up this post really fast, no i don’t need or want your approval and you guys can go ahead and talk all you would like about me but I’m all honesty your opinion of me doesn’t bug me at all your immature irrelevant comment won’t hurt my feelings you may not think that teen pregnancy is a good thing well good for you. You are not the one who is pregnant and again this is my life on no way does my life decisions affect you because it’s MY LIFE not yours. i don’t need or want your pitty or anything along those lines i am not asking for attention if I was I would have let you all know I was pregnant the day I found out, and in all honesty I was going to keep it off social media until ben and I had our baby but I felt the need to address my situation so people would actually get it right if they were gonna post things about me atleast they would be true things not made up lies. so that really concludes my post other than if you have any questions before you assume please message me you all have my social media and before you text your friend and say “Haylie is pregnant!!!!!” and tell your friends things you think you know from this post please message me and ask for clarification, there are a few personal questions i probably will not answer just know if I don’t reply its because I either hate you and don’t want you in my business or i simply don’t want to answer your question. So with that being said this concludes my post.
- Haylie Christensen
