Handwritten letter from my stalker
Here is the check that you asked for. To let you know what I said to you on the phone this morning I was being honest with you, from here on out I am going to be totally honest with you, yes I know the era of my ways. Why I know this is because the counselling that I have been going through has helped me get my mind on the right track and do the right things. Yes I was wrong for a lot no I thought say everything and I am very deeply sorry and I am going to get it right and to the right thing by you and for you. Cause I love you Sadie with all my heart, mind body and soul. Without you my life is nothing you are a part of me and I hate what I have done but I would like to have the chance to make it right and correct my wrongs and love you the way you want to be loved and Sadie I know that I am capable of change that if you will allow me the opportunity to do so. Please, and I will make sure that you will not regret doing so, with the help of God and every fiber in my body. I know you will find it hard to believe. But I am being sincere and totally honest with you about this. As you say we will see in six months and you will be total transformation and change in me.
Also you have no reason to fear me cause I will not hurt you no way fashion shape or form cause I love you very deeply I hurt each and every day for the things I have done to you and I am very sorry. I just hope and pray that you will find it in your heart to allow you and me to be back together. I will be the man you want me to be. I could be wrong but I do believe that deep in your heart that you still love me and you know that if it was not for the alcohol that this would not have ever happened and I hate what I have done And I suffer for it each and every day that I breathe cause God only knows that I did not mean to hurt the person that I love and care about cause you are my everything you are the only reason that I am living without you Sadie there is no reason for me to live I love you and miss you with all my heart. I am going to make sure that I do everything right by you even though we are not even together at this time and what I mean by that is I am not looking nor do I want to be with any other woman but you only you I mean that from the bottom of my heart with you. I hope that after you read this will try and believe me and give me the chance to show you and I hope and pray that you will give me a reply you may do so by email if you would like. I love you and miss you with all my heart.
Love always and forever