I look outside and I see the entire world around me is moving, accomplishing, doing. I project success and goals onto them that they are hustling toward…and I feel stuck searching for that goal among several goals. Wishing I had a definitive job to do. What inertia I have. Maybe just a win, a small win will get me over the hump? A small break? I’m ready to charge and work long days and nights. But I only watch and hope. It’s exhausting to wake up and not know what goal to work on that day, without knowing how that work will lead me to what I hope to be or become. I’m indecisive as to what I should do, what to pursue, so I’m frozen. What would my sister do? I wish I could ask her. I don’t want to hope and wait for something; I know I need to move, to hustle.