Battles of a Fucked Up Mind
I’m paranoid in my own mind, thinking you’re doing things, hiding things, lying to me, it’s a battle, a fight in my own mind, takes my sanity, I cry.
My broken heart plays with my mind, it’s a magician set on illusions.
The only safe place is solitude, being alone seems to keep me safe, safe from the insecurities of my mind, at least that’s the illusion of my fucked up mind.
I will not ask you to stay to be treated this way. I understand how difficult I am and tend to be when doubt steals me away. It’s complicated loving me, it’s down right crazy to want to stay with me while I’m losing my mind.
Heartbreak took my heart, gutted it out and now I’m left to try to be sane while my fuckin heart breaks.
I miss you so much, it becomes unbearable so I make things up. To comfort my lonely, broken, fucked up self, I push you away with doubts of infidelity. I push your love away from me and I don’t blame you for not wanting to be with someone as fucked up as me.
So this is on me, I know. God only knows the battle of my soul.
I love you, I fuckin love you, I know that seems hard to believe. But this one’s on me. I know.
