This part of this post is hitting me down in the feels.

I am loud and a little crazy. Some people hate me, but most people love me!

Apr 3, 2016

And fat means more than just the size or shape of your body. In those panic-driven conversations, fat means you’re not trying. It means you’re not loved, because fat isn’t lovable. Fat means you’re not strong, not moral, not smart enough to stay alert to the threat of fat. Fat means you’ve failed.

On your concern for your fat friend’s health.

Your Fat Friend

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This part of this post is hitting me down in the feels. I often berate myself in life when dealing with these thoughts. I have lost some weight over the last three years, but the mindset towards myself has stayed the same. I always feel like the big marshmallow in the room, paler than all sin and fluffy fat. So, when I read this portion I almost cried. I often think this way regardless of anything.

“Fat isn’t lovable.” That one little line is the worst. I have thought this about myself for so long. I have gotten better at loving myself, but the idea of being unlovable is still there. It is still the reason why I think I am alone, why I am not loved, why I hate myself some days. I see myself as fat and to everyone, myself included, means I “failed.”

Thank you for writing these posts. I have enjoyed ready many and have related to a lot of them. I know I am not the fastest person out there but I know I am not the smallest. I have a lot of thinner friends, and they just don’t get it. They can’t understand everything about being the larger person, like I can’t understand the troubles of being the thinner person.

So, thank you so much for being a voice I can relate too. Thank you for your time and effort you put into putting yourself out there with each post you write. Thank you!!