This is just way wayyyy to Boys will be Boys for me. And that may be due to experiencing the trauma of rape and having to interact with your rapist in social situations later, and needing to explain how he was a nice guy and a monster all in one. His inability to express his feelings had nothing to do with his desire to assault a woman. Why you? Why when you were drunk? And alone? Opportunity. He’s not some sad loner who needed human connection, hes a predator. As are all rapists. I’m still very sorry this happened to you.