No, you’re not a loser. You’re clearly still fighting. Everyone makes errors in judgment. As long as you keep trying, you’re not a loser.

I’m almost 34 myself and have been going through a series of “reboots”. I look forward to reading more of your story for inspiration and “to see what happens next”.

Keep fighting. Every day you make an effort for tomorrow is a win, even if it doesn’t go as expected.