Internal conflicts,

When what you’d prefer to happen doesn’t,

When what you feel verses what you’ve coded into your being creates a series of combustions based on fact and an educated assumption,

When what you feel verses what youve coded into your being has you feeling corrupted, Like your on the verge of being what had always enduced the feeling of disgust when brought up in discussion,

When what you feel verses what youve coded into your being has you feeling like this would be the path with the least unnecessary interruptions,

But then i think about the love then, i think about the weight that i carry, then i think about the scale that i would create and the calculations state that.. This would be the path that would make the most sense for me ,

But if i attempt to be what i see myself to be when i dream consciously ,

Would i lose those i love because of my honesty?, would i lose the ones that i love who took thier time on me?, would i be going against my own philosphy?,

Probably,

but i want this soo bad, its like you dont understand,

Im scared because i dont want to have to leave behind my friends, because they arent acting on the things that they’re sayin,

Damn.

— An Original Poem By Joshua Hampton Also Known As DahhDee