An Honest Letter to my Ex

Today’s the first day I felt like crying about you. It’s been two months without seeing your face each morning and each night. Two months without endless cuddling on the couch binge watching Netflix. Two months free of wondering every second about you and when your going to be home and what we’re going to do this Friday night and why you aren’t paying attention to me.

I miss you, I miss your glowing dark skin, and bright blue eyes. The scar on your nose, and your scruffy little beard with the tinge of red in it. I miss your laughter, your soulful singing, and all of our outdoor adventures.

I haven’t heard from you in what feels like a century. I have spoken to you every day multiple times a day for the last 3.5 years, and now I’m just left wondering. I wonder how your meetings are going, are you changing your ways? I wonder how your doing living on your own, do you miss me being there? How’s the math class, are you still feeling confident? I wonder if you ever think of me, or are u trying your hardest to forget about me?

I think of you everyday at least once or twice. I’m bored without you. You were always doing something crazy, a lot of which I didn’t agree with, but looking back I can say there was never a dull moment with you.

I wish so bad I could say that leaving was a mistake and that now I know we were meant to be together. But that’s not the case. I know this is what we both needed and wanted for a long time, but I still want you in my life.

I guess I’ll just have to do my best to live my own life now, but hopefully with each passing day we can learn how to live our separate lives and still know one another. I love you, I love you so much.