This is so beautiful and everything I was feeling last night when I had stayed up way too late, in front of the computer all day, all afternoon, and well into the middle of the night, nearly in tears because I had worked so long on a project that was due but kept finding more and more things I still had yet to do, that didn’t look good or just plain didn’t work at all. And all I could think was that if I was back at my “normal” job, I would have worked until a reasonable time, called it a day and went home.
Then I kept thinking how awful I was for feeling that way because I should be happy to be so busy, to have people wanting to pay me to create things for them, and the fact that I felt like I had jinxed myself into an inevitable lull in work for not being appreciative for having more than enough.
Then I woke up today, way too early, and felt like everything was going to be okay. Even though it’s catching up to me now and making me feel delirious and all I want to do is sleep. And even though I know that I’ll cycle through all of these emotions many many more times down the road. I know it’s okay because it’s normal. This is what most of us go through, and reading this today is such a happy coincidence. Thank you so much for putting into words how we all feel about this journey.