Your inner critic is big jerk!
I knew about The Jealous Curator, for those who don’t know it, it’s a blog about emerging and newly-established artists by Danielle Krysa, for a few years. However, only few days ago, I started reading her book “Creative Block”, interviews with artists about their creative processes, daily struggles and inspirations. This book was not a random choice. September is a huge month for me when it comes to decision making. Not only am I changing my geographical location but also I quit my daily job, so it is a multi-layered tower of newness and the unknown. It is very hard not to project too much into the future without being terrified of the possible scenarios of what may go wrong.
When I end up with a state of mind, which turns on the emotional alarm mode, I try to look for consolation in a specific kind of self-help books. I am not even sure you may call them so. I look for everything written on the pains and doubts of creative life. Artists are most convincing when it comes to overcoming doubt, being stuck in a rut and fear of failure. They go through it everyday and for me they are always successful. It does not matter whether they are well-known, their art is sold at the best galleries for the unimaginable amounts of money. They succeed because they continue making art. They do not give up!
After I read the interviews in Krysa’s book, as a part of a self-coaching exercise, I re-read answers to variation of one question she asked all of the interviewees: “Do you discuss things with your inner critic?”, “Does you inner critic ever get to you?”, “Does your inner critic ever have an opinion?”. Inner critic, this domesticated monster, the inner beast of doubt, a nightmare in our heads whose voice sometimes seems so overwhelming… We all have it but we deal with it in so many ways. A friend of mine used to repeat after Scarlett O’Hara: “I think about it tomorrow.” and the same way, her inner critic was naturally silenced. Some people ignore it as long as it is possible, others succumb to it almost all the time. It was so refreshing to read and compare how creators of art deal with it on everyday basis. It cheered me up that there is a way to tame it and keep doing what you like to do without letting it drive the vehicle of your existence.
I started thinking that the problem of “inner critic” in creating art could be a separate subject of a great book. Funnily enough, just when I thought that, I found out that Danielle Krysa wrote a new book, which will be available this October. Guess what the title is: Your Inner Critic is a Big Jerk.! I cannot wait to read it to find additional consolation for my severe inner criticism. For all of you who have great ideas but are afraid about the outcomes, reactions of the nearest and dearest, perception of your ideas by others, remember “YOUR INNER CRITIC IS A BIG JERK”! Follow your instincts and inspire others!