A Humiliating Experience Doing a Talk at a Prestigious Hospital
Life is Perfect? Seriously?
A few months ago, I did a talk for the chronic back pain department at a prestigious hospital. I was really proud of myself for doing it. I was going to impress them with how I help people with chronic pain — often it’s ludicrously easy. I put a nice dress on, was confident. Hey, I was talking to doctors, physiotherapists, hospital staff, all 17 of them, standing at the front of a room with a Powerpoint presentation. I kept it simple; after all, I know my stuff and have been doing it for years.
Then… it all bottomed out. I got accused of not knowing what I was doing, not being “regulated”, what would I do if a patient had tumor? Of course, I felt humiliated. I did the best I could to keep my composure and I had answers. Three people stayed behind to say words of encouragement. However, by then I was dying to get home. When I did, I hid under the bed covers and cried.
When I started telling my friends about it, I got sympathy and support from everyone. The interesting thing is that when I told my friends who have some sort of “energetic” background, they may have first felt the anger or sympathy for me being treated that way, but then they would all unpick the event.
1. What were my beliefs about myself?
2. What was I trying to achieve?
3. How did I go into the talk feeling?
1. I felt like a fraud
2. I wanted to empower people with their health and show them easier ways to do it
3. Hmm, not sure. I thought I was excited, but maybe something subconscious was going on
An amazing opportunity would have come up for me in doing that talk. If they took me seriously (they might in a few years’ time), I would have been able to start teaching them how terribly easy some things are when generally, it’s made impossible.
I had a lot of soul-searching to do after that. Did they stop me from going forward in my work? Not a chance. The main issue for me is, “Do the things I do work? Am I really helping people?” That’s all. I can take the humiliation and shame. If I felt my work was useless, I would be in a different job.
The point of what I’m saying is that when we have dreams and we all do, don’t deny it, life apparently gives us problems and pain in order to find the answers. Otherwise, we wouldn’t listen.
This is a really tricky thing to negotiate around. It doesn’t seem plausible. Surely, problems are just that — a pain in the backside, life not being fair for us. Apparently not and none of my friends who understand how the universal laws of energy work stay in that frame of mind, or they do their best to see what’s behind things.
I know some things feel SO hard. I truly understand that. Yet, if you want to get past it, take off that layer of limitation, you HAVE to look what’s behind it. What are your beliefs about yourself and the world? Your emotions and repetitive thoughts?
I can’t say that I’ve got it all worked out. What I can say is that by applying the methodology that everything that happens is perfect and that life has an interesting way of showing us of “where to look next”, we get some transformation. I’m sure of this, as by doing it, I have felt life getting better. The things that bothered me years ago, hardly bother me now and the same issues don’t show up (or AS much). Am I feeling transformed after my adventure? I’m not sure, but I’m stronger and more sure of my work than ever before. I am addressing those beliefs about being a fraud. Of course, I’m not a fraud, but I must have had some hidden fear about it, especially as what I’m doing is so obscure and hardly accepted in mainstream medicine.
So, can you look past your problem to see what your own beliefs, emotions and thoughts are to cause it to come to your attention? Can you own your problems? One way people do this for themselves is journalling their feelings and emotions regularly. Just let it out!