#TheSummerOfChange

Day 3: Awareness & Autopilot

I was supposed to write this article yesterday, but I didnt.

I was first going to write it in the morning, but I got distracted. Next thing I knew I had to leave for work at 1.

Then I figured I’d write it on my break. That also didn’t happen.

I got home around 11pm and was exhausted. By the time I thought about this article again, it was too late: I was already asleep and my streak was over at 2 measley days.

This morning I woke up and felt compelled to write this article as the first task of the day.

I felt the pang of guilt that comes when one realizes they have let themselves down.

It would have been easy to let the same-old negative self-talk say:

“ You already missed a day and it hasn’t been a week yet. Who are you fooling? Just scrap this pipe dream now and save yourself the trouble”

But something kicked in this morning that wouldn’t let that happen. Something woke me up from autopilot. That something was simply conscious awareness mixed with raising the stakes.

If I didn’t have the 2 previous articles out there on the blogosphere, then it wouldve been easy for me to bail as Ive always bailed on major personal improvement projects…but this time I raised the stakes by making it public. This has given me the conscious awareness that I’ll need to make real and lasting change.