The World Needs You Now, As You Are

The Truth Behind Getting Your Shit Together

She said ‘You need to get your shit together’ and it hit home hard. But she barely knew me. I barely knew her. It’s the reason my ex and I broke up. They both saw straight through me. Straight through my walls. My walls that keeps most at bay thinking I have it together. But really it protects me from ever exposing my deep fear of not being enough.

‘The Truth Will Set You Free’

When the walls came down I felt free.
I wasn't fooling anyone and I sure as hell wasn’t fooling myself anymore.

You see, up until this point I had been working at a cafe waiting tables and also waiting for me to ‘get my shit together.’ Each day looked pretty much the same. With a deep knowing that I was capable of much more than my then present reality. Working at the cafe slowly dying on the inside, because I wasn’t feeling fulfilled, resenting going to work because at the time I felt it was Ground Hog Day. Repeating itself. It felt as though I was just doing it to scrape by. Keep a roof over my head, pay my bills and it was barely doing a good job of that.

Even though I had already repeated this ‘Getting Your Shit Together 101, 202 and 303' far too many times to count on both hands. I was finally at the tipping point. You know the moments I’m talking about; the ones where you can no longer avoid or ignore the lessons anymore because they keep showing up, everywhere, again and again.

Guess what?
You’ll never have your shit together.

I learnt that the truth is getting your shit together is not a destination; it’s the process. The process paves the ways to our purpose. It’s the rituals we practice daily that build who we are. It’s the incremental daily disciplines that count. It’s the bit by bit, day by day. Focussing on what must be done today in order to achieve your goals. A personal truth is that I don't always feel like I have my shit together but I’m making progress. Even in writing this it a part of me is scared in sharing it. But it’s okay, it’s a process.
In testing times remember this…

If you wait until you’re going to FEEL ready you’ll be waiting for the rest of your life. The world can’t wait until you feel ready. We need you now, as you are.
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