Is this about that time you mixed up lube with superglue?
I have spent my whole life avoiding war. Lifes hard enough without people deliberately trying to kill you.
Marriage is something we are never ready for. Everybody's experience of it is different so any advice has limited use. Some marriages work but many do not. And sometimes you discover that you have a long road to travel to find where you needed to be. And who you needed to be with.