I write this not to discourage or debate with anyone their personal triumph in finding what they consider a life truth. I write only to share a small portion of my thoughts with as much honesty as possible in what I'm positive will continue to be a lifelong mission in the art of seeking. Expecting a tidal wave of criticism and scriptures backing up these said personal truths from multiple angles and channels, I’d prefer the reader to keep an open mind and encourage you not to justify your stance or take an unnecessary defensive position. I am simply asking you to be a listener in the form of reader, tough as that may be through written word on a media platform. I’m simply presenting a personal conclusion I have arrived at, which is subject to change with time and age.
I was raised in the Christian faith. Still upholding many of the values and morals I was taught as a child through the bible, I often refer back to the teachings without considering the book in its entirety an absolute truth. Almost all of my family is Christian, many devout and actively pronouncing that the only way to enter the kingdom of God is through Jesus Christ (Yes I am aware of the scripture John 14:6). If I were God, which I'm obviously not ( I can barely remember basic math problems from my childhood at times), it would seem to me that mankind was almost bound to attempt various ways of trying to reach me being that so many efforts have been previously made and so many questions still remain unanswered on a universal scale. Would I condemn a man for not attempting to reach me through the proper outlet or using an improper name? If I was God? No. If my mere mortal mind is capable of forgiving discrepancies of this caliber, I’m sure Gods capacity far surpasses mine.
Glass house is a song I released in 2010. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9nbweFueqM I can remember vividly finishing the song and feeling as if I was just a lone spectator to the lyric writing that took place. A feeling I would compare closely with what may be interpreted as the holy spirit. I have only experienced this form of writing on a few rare occasions, usually my experience and years of practice dictate the proper flow and energy of my writing. When I look at the various books in the bible, which were written in accordance to multiple time periods, I can’t help but think that not every single one of those books could have possibly been written under divine intervention. Not only is the probability highly unlikely, the chance of gathering every book and assuming the collection is the conclusive and exclusive word of God should fall under heavy scrutiny. Do I feel the bible contains truths that can actively guide your faith in many respects? Absolutely.
You may assume that I am making a case that Christianity is a falsehood and you would be completely incorrect. In fact, I believe that Yeshua did in fact walk this earth and serve as a sacrifice for forgiveness. I also believe that the father or ruler of creation would hear your prayers, meditations, cares, concerns or praises if you called to Jehovah, Allah, YHWY, the great spirit or no name whatsoever. After all, if there is in fact one God as most religions claim, there would only be one supreme being to contact and I would like to think of him as gracious enough to answer, despite our translations and interpretations. I don’t believe any faith is 100 percent accurate, certainly not my own. Mankind is built on imperfections, flaws and mistakes. In elementary school I had a teacher who would whisper in the ear of one child and ask him/her to pass along the story to the rest of the class. By the time the story reached the last child, it only retained small fragments of the original tale. By comparison, truths that may have occurred over 2,000 years ago could possibly be tarnished. When something presented in fact is undeniable, there is no logic in arguing about it. Yet here we are not even able to agree on exactly what the puzzle is, let alone the pieces which make it complete.
No free pass for sin is being given here, ultimately we all have an obligation to our fellow citizens of the world to act in accordance to proper ethics and morals, open to debate. This brings me to my next point, which many in western society may find hard to swallow. If we examine generations of black families living in project houses due to segregation and discrimination stemming from the days of slavery. Or if we look at the land we all take for granted, which was stolen from the natives who we now refuse the basic right of clean water, there is an insurmountable pile of injustices to bare. Most of these forms of human cruelty were done while simultaneously trying to convert the oppressed to Christianity. Based on what I know about Christ, I believe he would be appalled on the foundation which we have built the country that is the supposed leader of the free world.
I am not an atheist, theist, agnostic, Muslim, Buddhist, Christian or any other label human beings desire to attach to others unlike them. I am a believer, uncategorized. I believe that we can change if we choose to right our wrongs, wrongs which unfortunately run extremely deep into the springs of righteousness. My favorite scripture lies in Matthew 7:7–8, primarily the “seek and ye shall find” portion. I’ve been seeking a long time now and what I've found is that religious based belief provides a great base for fellowship, a likeminded support group and kindred spirits. What I feel is lacking is faith in some respect . Faith in mankind, all of it, despite our differences. Faith in Truth, even when it may contradict our current set of values. Faith in continuous and broad seeking with the openness and admittance that beyond the miniscule words survived by previous generations and the scientific studies under way currently, we know very little about God or the universe surrounding us. I have faith in God, a God non biased to indifferences in human strengths and weakness. The name I choose to call that God is between God and I, and I respect the name you choose, whatever that may be even if it’s simply positive energy.
I fear for those who believe there is no room for error in their faith, for if there ever is a day of judgement, would you stand up to the judge as if he should conform to your ways? It seems as if the more intellectually capable we become, the further we grow from our faith. There is a lesson in that alone. The wonder and amazement in the eyes of a child seeing the horizon near the ocean or the majesty of a mountain top, tells an entirely different lesson. Gaining knowledge to move forward in our thought process while maintaining the same childlike faith in creation and the creator is a beautiful balance. I’m proud of anyone who has adopted a belief that has enriched their life for the greater good of not only their personal circle but of all creation to benefit from. I know little, yet I know I have faith, even if it is simply the size of a mustard seed.