On a deeper level, I’m aware that the reality of being alive is difficult no matter who we are. So I don’t want to subject others to my hopelessness and sadness because I think there are enough reasons to be dejected and sad in this world and I don’t want to be another source of dejection and sadness.
…er “looking depressed” means) and they’re trying to assure me that I don’t look like I’m depressed. As if someone who looks put together on the outside couldn’t be feeling hopeless and worthless on the inside. As if whether or not you’re depressed depends on how other people experience you.