Alone I Die.
intimate poem from past thoughts now resurfaced

I am awake and I am alone.
As others sleep, I cry and weep
As others dream, I contemplate
My life has no purpose, truly no reason to create.
I don’t know where I am to go
Whether to the depths down below
Whether to the heaven above
That beautiful place full of much needed love.
No, not to the heaven far up
For my soul is but an empty cup
No, not even to the depths below
No where to go I am in limbo.
Where oh where will I find a grave that is hollow?
Where my body won’t be as cold as snow
Where the warmth and love that I crave
Can heat my soul’s empty cave
Day and night I painfully seek this location
Constantly aware of my ugly creation,
But tonight and today I let go
And I won’t leave a note to show.
Now I leave with no goodbye
Let it be forgotten that, alone I lived and alone I die.