I can connect so much with this. I lost my Mother this past September and I was only 18. It was two weeks into my first semester into college. I started blogging as a way to release my emotions and my sadness. Most people though can’t relate to my situation. It’s true, at select moments emotions come out of nowhere and make me feel sadness, regret and guilt. I can’t help but think, what if? What if this, what if that? I think about my future and how much it will change because she isn’t here physically. Time indeed makes it harder because the memories seem so distant and you start to forget their voice and all their little quirks. I have a lot of posts about my Mom, (they are scattered all over the past few months), but I completely agree with everything you said. Stay strong!