I’d like to say I’ve been thinking about Mollie Tibbetts a lot lately. But I haven’t.
I only came to know Mollie’s name through tragedy. So instead of thinking of the young person who’s life was taken prematurely I’ve been thinking about the circumstances surrounding her murder.
And what they mean to me.
Who coaches high school girls to be healthy, strong, independent young women.
Through the sport of running.
What does it mean when running — the act that I love, the act I hope to help the girls I coach love — as a independent, assertive woman — traits I hope to help foster through my coaching — can also be taking ones life in ones hands?
- According to a 2017 Runner’s World survey of over 2,500 women, “nearly one in three say they’ve been followed by someone — whether on foot or in a car — while they were running.”
- According to the same survey “ 43 percent of women say they’ve sometimes, often, or always been honked at, catcalled, or received unsolicited sexual attention on their runs.”
- 92% of women surveyed (Ninety-Two Percent!!!!) considered whether it is light or dark before they go for a run.
These stats have me unpacking my privilege as a straight white male.
I have never been followed (that I’ve noticed) on a run.
If running at night gives me pause it is to make sure I am wearing light-colored clothing.
Sometimes people will yell things at me as I run. Usually it is the patently unoriginal “Run, Forrest! Run!” (The movie has been out for a quarter century — surely you can do better?)
Only rarely will anyone comment on the length of my shorts.
It has never made me feel unsafe, objectified, or marginalized.
But I have spent the better part of the last decade and change running with young women.
And I’ve been a bystander to sexual harassment.
My knee-jerk reaction has always been to fight fire with fire.
One autumn Saturday our long run brought us into contact with a sea revelers — pre-gaming before the Hawkeyes took on the Arizona Wildcats in an early afternoon contest.
As we waited on the corner of 1st Ave and 2nd Street for the light to change so we could cross the Coralville Strip a white-hatted frat boy yelled out of and idling party bus.
— Show us your t*ts!
Fighting fire with fire I responded to unwanted sexual advanced with unwanted sexuality and showed him mine.
He spouted a homophobic slur. The light changed. We went on our way.
But even those reactions are manifestations of my privilege. I reacted without fear of retaliation.
But reacting in such a manner could be dangerous — if not deadly — for the girls I coach.
What advice can I give to the girls on how to acknowledge — or not acknowledge — respond — or not respond — to similar situations?
The week before prom I tell the girls there are three words they need to be prepared to use: No, Stop and Don’t.
That anyone who doesn’t listen to these words — or makes them feel small for using them — not only isn’t worth there time but potentially a criminal.
That if they find themselves using these words, they can come talk to me about it. Or I can find them someone to talk to.
But Mollie Tibbetts said no. And she was killed.
The fact of the matter is, no matter what we teach our girls, no matter how strong and resilient we raise them to be, they can do everything right.
And still come up on the wrong end of a bad deal.
The fact of the matter is this situation has just as much — if not more — to do with our sons than our daughters.
I don’t like the term “toxic masculinity.”
To me the violence that was perpetrated against Mollie and so many other women is not a function of masculinity. It is sadism.
It’s the work of a sociopath. Not a man.
But the perpetrators are men.
And so I sit and think — have I passively permitted a culture or environment of sexual harassment and misogyny?
I’d like to think I haven’t.
But chances are I have sat there and said nothing, done nothing, looked the other way while some man acted the bore.
I’ve walked the world en-cloaked in my privilege as if an injury to another wasn’t an injury to myself.
As if I can enjoy the feelings of liberation my runs bring to me while others calculate if they can get theirs in before the sun sets.
I don’t know where my voice belongs in this conversation. Or if it has a place.
I do know the only thing necessarily for evil — for chauvinism, for misogyny, for toxic masculinity — to prevail, is for the good to do nothing.