She Believed

Have you ever questioned how smart you are? How capable you are? How strong you are? If you answered yes to all of these questions, you my friend are not alone. I remember as a freshman in high school being reminded by my communication arts teacher of how smart I was and that I shouldn’t settle for taking her class which apparently categorized the students in that class as students who planned on not attending college.

I started doing everything I possibly could to prove this teacher wrong, I wanted to prove to her that I wasn’t smart, that I wasn’t capable and that I wasn’t going to succeed. I began sleeping in her class, being careless about assignments, and finding every excuse in the book to be sent to the nurses office. As soon as I realized this teachers attention was no longer on what she thought I was capable of doing I quickly became comfortable and wished she would’ve never commented on my capabilities and how smart I was.

I was content with living a regular life and never stepping outside of my comfort zone. It was a pattern from that point on. I barely passed high school and I was perfectly fine with receiving a barely passing grade.

There are so many daunting things in the world that we must overcome. Only the undaunted — the undaunted in Christ will be able to triumph over them. -Christine Caine

My awesome friend let me borrow this awesome book by Christine Caine called Undaunted. This quote right here wrecked me. It was reminder of everything that God said I was and minimized everything that enemy tried to convince me I was not. When God called Moses to rescue his people from Egypt, Moses didn’t believe that he was capable of doing the things God was calling him to because of his lack of speaking skills. God reminded Moses of all of things he was capable of and that God has already equipped him with all that he needed (Exodus 4).

God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called.

As we are fast approaching the new school year I am excited about the thought of being a student again. I have been emailing my professor since the end of July. The old Chelsea would’ve procrastinated until the first day of classes. I emailed my professor today to ask how I can prepare for my upcoming psychology class, he replied by saying “skim through the first chapter.”

Ahhhh I have never been so excited about new chapters. I am so thankful to God that he listens and that he pays attention to the detail and that everything that we once thought was lost, all along he is just finding a way to make a better way for us.

So here I am almost 11 years later, believing that I can. 😊