What do you do, when you got nothing to do? Introduction
Apparently, what I do, is I start writing.
I’m an aspiring actress. What that means is I apply for drama schools, I audition, and I’ll wait for the result. I’ve started auditioning when I was just 18 years old, with little experience in acting, not really sure of what I was doing. I’ve got a couple of recalls, but the crushing reality is that, especially when you start at a young age, you have to deal with a lot of rejection. That, obviously, doesn’t apply for everyone. I’ve met many people throughout this journey and many got accepted on their first audition.
Now I am 20 years old, I have done two 9 month courses in acting in which I have done public performances every three months, I’ve auditioned 9 (?) times at 8 different Drama schools, mainly based in Germany, and had somewhat of a breakdown earlier this year. When I say “somewhat of a breakdown” I mean crying on the kitchen floor, looking for flights to south east Asia, and immediately getting really tense when somebody asked me “How is it going?” — I was a mess in January and February and decided it was best for me to take a step back and to just focus on my course and find my passion again.
However, the title was a bit different, wasn’t it? At the moment I… am not really doing anything. And it’s really difficult, sometimes. I, apparently, am one of those people who need loads of work and be exhausted and get home and just go straight to bed, get up again and start working again.
Now my daily routine (as you would name it on YouTube) is I get up, I kiss my man, I make a cup of tea or coffee, and see what I do next. This, for me, resulted into a “I can’t be fucking bothered to go out grocery shopping rn” and got a bit unhealthy. Which is why I decided I should start writing. And stick to it. Hopefully this will make me more productive, make me want to take pictures, work out, visit new coffeeshops, and try. new. things and won’t cancel dates with my friends.
Thank you for reading this to the end.